Don't know what to do

June's going to be a busy holiday.

China trip. BP Quest. NCO camp. NYAA.

There's a SUPER THICK stack of notes for BQ Quest. I wonder how much of it I can digest.
I hope we at least get into the finals.

China trip, got so many things to pack.

NCO camp is going to be booty.

WHY ON THE EARTH DID THEY TELL US TO FILL OUT THAT DARN FORM? HELLO, SELF-EVALUATION? I have low self-esteem, thank you so very much.

I think the only one that I can give myself a 1-2 is the knowledge thing. And I haven't even gone through BP Quest yet.

Done with my nominations. Did they create the footdrills I/C or something?

9 positions:
CL
ACL
Secetary (Internal & Webpage)
Secetary (External & NYAA)
Treasurer
QM (Lounge)
QM (Store + Reporter for Guides News)
PT I/C (+ CIP)
Footdrills I/C (+ hike)

Hohohos. They should create a first aid I/C.

2 Coys x 9 Ex-Co = 18 Ex-co
34 guidies - 18 Ex-co - 10 PL = 6 PS (provided they are scattered across different patrols)

Hohohos.
I don't know what I want to be, and I won't get it anyways.
Hohohos.
Is Hohohos like my divider or something?
Hohohos.

Here's presenting...

Here's presenting the results of me eating 5 LARGE chocolate balls and avoiding the strawberry flavour and gobbling down the chocolate (SO HEATY!) and milk ones instead. *sniff* *cough* How nice, let's un-welcome Mr. Sniff into the family. I hope he gets kicked out soon. One thing for sure, I won't have to run X Country tomorrow. Do I still have to go or something? Shall just go incase.

SO YEOMAN, EVEN IF YOU'VE DENIED MY ENTRY, I'M STILL NOT RUNNING! MUAWHAHAHA! Then again it's not that I really mind running, but I haven't been running for very long since Jogging ended. Oh what a lame excuse. Like I'm going to get an MC next year. Anyways I don't want one 'cos it's my last year and being sick really sucks. -_-"

So I failed footdrills. I don't know how to comment pass that 4th word. I am disappointed, yes, I don't know of any human being on the earth who wouldn't be disappointed if he/she were in my shoes, and I almost burst out crying (for I don't know what reason, probrably because I kept harping on it and everyone was encouraging me and telling me to go to them to ask if I was unsure of anything - but it's not their fault, I don't blame them, and I appreciate their concern, but humans are plain weird I guess. Especially my kind.) and then I HUUUUSHED myself and told myself to shut up.

In life and in my future I would meet up with so many other bigger setbacks as compared to this ikan billis of failing a foot drills badge. If I'm going to cry over a small fry, how to fish for the big whale? I'm probrably taking my first true step out of my own selfish, it's-everything-about-me world. Constant self-pity is going to get me nowhere. It is easier said than done, but I'm sure I'll be more used to it as time goes by.

I can't expect the world to move with me. To move at my phase, to do everything in my command. It's not like I'm MP or President. And no, I won't bother to run for elections.

I guess it's time I let go. Time to take things in my stride. Time to think (hey-it's-not-so-bad-that-i-failed-i-can-perfect-my-foot-drills-and-pass-with-no-mistakes-next-time). Being sick is a lame excuse. I knew my heart wasn't half into it.

Hating Sec 3.

Hyperventilated Text Makes Language

Incase you didn't know, I was typing crap.
The world IS crap. I've never met a crappier world.

What are blogs for anyway?
I've found a new way to conceal my true feelings...

SEC 3 SUCKS.

vending machines

I have a recent obsession with vending machines.

I think I might have already spent $20 bucks on them.
I can't help it...they're addictive. -_-"

I shall refrain...
Sec 4 farewell's coming.
Need $$ for stars.
Need time for stars.
Need sincerity for stars.
Need bottle for stars.



Oh. *reaches out to grab money and walks off to nearest bookshop*

Stars are my new friends.
They shine, they glitter, they make you happy.

being there always

Being There Always

The night sky may be dark
but it's filled with stars
The road may wind
but we'll end up just fine

So no matter what
Don't give up
I'll always be there
to wipe your tears dry

Being there always
to put the smile back on

Everyone so depressed nowadays, and it's supposed to be the no-test peroid. *sigh* I guess all the reasons for daoing for the past few months is all bursting out of nowhere this month.